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I was in a cranky cranky mood this morning, which wasn't helped by late streetcars and email wanting me to do things as soon as I got to work. But I put on the headphones, ignored everyone else, and am listening to Garbage, and now I feel much better.
Part of the reason I'm so cranky lately is that my jaw and throat are killing me. My dentist says I'm grinding my teeth at night, which makes sense considering how sharp my teeth always are. And if that's true, I've probably been doing it for years without realizing it. Anyway, I can get a guard to wear at night (sexy!), which will stop me from chipping my teeth any more, but won't help with the pain which has arrived so suddenly. I'm also going to be getting massage on my jaw and neck, which will hopefully help. But it hurts! *whine* And my throat is swollen, which I assume is somehow related, and I'm totally conscious of how frequently I catch myself clenching my jaw these days, so I'm hyper aware of everything.
Part of the reason I'm so cranky is that I'm in avoidance mode at work. I'm going to let you in on a little secret: I'm scared of the shipping department. I always feel like an idiot down there. Worse, I revert to being about 12 (which isn't that far, considering that most of the time I feel like I'm about 17, but still). I'm quite certain that all the shipping men are laughing at me as soon as I leave. But right now, I have 13 boxes that have to go to various libraries in the States, and I need to find out how much they will cost to ship before I send them, which means I have to take them down there, ask about shipping prices, and bring them back up. I can't just fill out the form, drop of the goods, and run. So I'm avoiding, which is hard to do when you're confronted with boxes all over your desk.
And there's other stuff, the little stuff that ends up seeming so enormous when I'm already annoyed. Still, I'm going to ignore my co-workers as much as possible, pretend I'm not really here, and wait for the day over. With the help of Garbage.
Part of the reason I'm so cranky lately is that my jaw and throat are killing me. My dentist says I'm grinding my teeth at night, which makes sense considering how sharp my teeth always are. And if that's true, I've probably been doing it for years without realizing it. Anyway, I can get a guard to wear at night (sexy!), which will stop me from chipping my teeth any more, but won't help with the pain which has arrived so suddenly. I'm also going to be getting massage on my jaw and neck, which will hopefully help. But it hurts! *whine* And my throat is swollen, which I assume is somehow related, and I'm totally conscious of how frequently I catch myself clenching my jaw these days, so I'm hyper aware of everything.
Part of the reason I'm so cranky is that I'm in avoidance mode at work. I'm going to let you in on a little secret: I'm scared of the shipping department. I always feel like an idiot down there. Worse, I revert to being about 12 (which isn't that far, considering that most of the time I feel like I'm about 17, but still). I'm quite certain that all the shipping men are laughing at me as soon as I leave. But right now, I have 13 boxes that have to go to various libraries in the States, and I need to find out how much they will cost to ship before I send them, which means I have to take them down there, ask about shipping prices, and bring them back up. I can't just fill out the form, drop of the goods, and run. So I'm avoiding, which is hard to do when you're confronted with boxes all over your desk.
And there's other stuff, the little stuff that ends up seeming so enormous when I'm already annoyed. Still, I'm going to ignore my co-workers as much as possible, pretend I'm not really here, and wait for the day over. With the help of Garbage.