Jan. 6th, 2009 12:29 pm
listersgirl: (drink to that)
I like making resolutions - I like the idea that I will have goals, and maybe along the way I will become an AWESOME PERSON - but I really feel like I haven't had time to think about them, and any list I put together becomes a to-do list ("I resolve to do the dishes tonight!" Really? Okay then!)

So I thought, why should I do all the work of making my own resolutions when I have the whole internet in front of me? Why not get the internet to make resolutions for me?

Make a New Year's Resolution for me! Or more than one, if you like. Anonymous commenting is ON, so use this as your opportunity to mold me into the person you'd like me to be. :)
listersgirl: (ice ice baby)
You know what's hard? Typing with gloves on. Oh yes. However, it is FREEZING LIKE A FROZEN THING in the library today, so I am persevering. I am wearing my scarf as well, and am one step from putting on my coat, except that it's very long and would inevitably get caught under my rolly chair. Obviously.

Okay! It's almost February, and therefore I have decided to make resolutions. Why now? Why not! Yes, I realize resolutions are evil and rarely kept, and also, it's February, but I'm a rebel. Besides, January was a complete loser of a month. February really has no choice but to be better.


1. NO MORE COLDS. Because I have had two colds already in January (or one really sneaky cold that keeps coming back). Because I've probably been sick more days than I've been healthy (including today, STILL, lord). Okay, so possibly me saying that I refuse to have any more colds isn't going to do anything, but it can't hurt, right?

2. LEAVE THE HOUSE. I don't mean socialize with other people, so much as just...get out of the house. I used to spend all weekend wandering around, roaming various neighbourhoods, going for walks, trying new restaurants. These days I don't even make it as far as the corner store. Granted, it's not exactly walking weather (the wind today!), but surely there are ways of me leaving the house that don't require me to be outside for hours.

3. PRACTICE BELLYDANCE 15 MINUTES A DAY. 15 minutes. That's nothing, right? So really it's just a) convincing myself that I won't die if I'm not sitting on the couch, and b) doing it regularly enough that it becomes a habit, something I do without thinking.

4. WASH THE DISHES EVERY NIGHT. Or even better, right after I cook/eat. But mostly I just want to go to bed without dishes lying everywhere.

Those last two are really just about developing habits. Okay, partially they're about convincing myself to do something that can't be done from the couch (upright and energetic is hard for me these days), but mostly they're about making something so habitual that it no longer becomes a conscious choice, or something I can easily forget about. And I have faith. I have actually turned a couple of things into very ingrained habits: taking a daily multivitamin, and making my bed*.

On the other hand, I've completely failed at becoming a habitual flosser, because I just keep forgetting.

Anyone else have a habit success story to give me hope? Or habit failure stories. I can take 'em. :D

*Making the bed was a big one for me, because I don't think I ever made my bed until last year, except when I was changing the sheets. I really just couldn't see the point. But it's kind of nice to climb into an untangled bed.
listersgirl: (cowardice and sandwiches)
New Year's resolutions have a deservedly bad rep - how many of them ever get kept? - but I always find myself making goals and resolutions at this time of year anyway. Not because it's the new year, but because it's post-December work craziness, post-Christmas preparations, post-visit home to family. Basically that's two months of me saying, "okay, when I get back from Victoria, I'm going to start..."

I didn't write anything down this year, but I am attempting to not eat lunch at my desk every day. So far so good! I never used to eat at my desk, but the kitchenettes are pretty small, and then they turned one into a meeting room, so space was precious and my desk seemed like a better option. It makes work long, though, if I'm in front of the computer all day.

I've also, shockingly, brought lunch every day this week (at least, every day that I've been working, which is only three, but still). It's amazing how quickly you can eat lunch when you don't have to stand in line in the food court first.
listersgirl: (ooh me)
There is a new farmer's market every Thursday, across the street from my work. AWESOME. Today I bought asparagus and strawberries. I can't wait for blueberry season; everyone else is going to have to get there really early or else just accept that I will buy ALL THE BLUEBERRIES IN THE WORLD.


The thing is, every summer I have the same five conversations with myself*, and every summer nothing happens, but this summer! This summer, one of my "shoulds" will become a "do".

*1. It's very bright out here. I should give in and buy expensive prescription sunglasses.

2. Maybe I should just get contacts instead and buy cheap sunglasses.

3. I should go do some of those things that people do in Toronto in the summer. There's more to summer than air conditioning and patios, or so I've been told.

4. I have so much free time these days.** I should take a class, or go back to the gym.

5. Now would be a perfect time to start buying all my vegetables at farmer's markets.

**No, I have no idea why I think I have more free time in the summer. It must be the heatstroke.
listersgirl: (mehndi)
We got sent home early today because of the massive snowstorm. Except that because I started far before everyone else who was there today, "early" meant "5 minutes before I get off", and in fact I ended up not leaving for half an hour because the people I like ended up in a really silly conversation. So I was totally denied early leaving!

Not like I needed it anyway; the subways were actually less crowded than usual and totally running fine. I guess everyone left super early?

Yesterday I had a bit of an epiphany that I was living my life in a way that made me feel out of control (letting things (physical and mental) pile up, not getting enough sleep, eating terribly, obsessing), so I got up today (on time! another thing that has been slipping completely) with a renewed sense of being a responsible person (in at least some areas of my life). Every time I thought about chocolate, I recited cheesy motivational slogans to myself ("Today is the first day of the rest of your life!"). So far so good, although I am sitting here on the computer instead of making dinner. But I'm just entertaining myself while drinking motivational tea (Granville Island Cream Earl Grey, yum). And I did put the dishes in to soak first.

And now I have VERY IMPORTANT footwear-related questions. The tendonitis is fine these days -- at least, it doesn't hurt at all as long as I don't wear shoes or boots that press on that specific part of my tendon (up the back of my foot right where it dips in before going on to be the leg*). The problem, of course, is that most of my shoes hit right at that spot, which is why the problem exists in the first place. And the tendonitis is never actually going away -- that will always be a weak spot for me, and if I wear something that rubs there it flares up again. The biggest offenders are my Doc boots, which has thrown me into somewhat of a tizzy.**

Because here's the thing: I've been wearing this same style of Doc boot as my everyday footwear since I was 15.*** They're just so convenient. I can wear them in all sorts of weather, with pants or skirts or dresses, they're good for walking long distances, I can wear them to work, they last longer than any other kind of shoe I've owned****, I like they way they look, and I feel somehow strong and powerful when I wear them.***** They are, for me, all purpose. It's only in the past couple of years that I've really owned shoes other than Docs and sandals. But now it looks like my Doc days are over, and I have no idea what to replace them with. What do people wear? They have to be comfortable, and I have to be able to walk in them, but they need to be versatile style-wise, and I really don't want to become one of those people who change their shoes at work every day. Also, I'd like to avoid having a gazillion pairs of shoes, because I have a small closet (and a not-massive income).

So, share! What kind of footwear do you wear? Do you have go-to footwear, fallback footwear, something that goes with everything? What do you wear with skirts (if you wear skirts as non-fancy wear)? Links or specific brands/styles would be great, too. HELP ME INTERBETS!

*According to my doctor, this is a very bizarre place to have this problem. It's because for years I've worn boots instead of shoes.
**The other problem, of course, is that it's WINTER, and all my boots are uncomfortable to a degree. The only shoes I own that are avoid the sore spot completely are little flats, which I totally can't wear outside. Also, they're not that great for wearing every day, and I think my knees are starting to get annoyed at the lack of support.
***I'm sure you're thinking that it's about time I moved on anyway. I know, I know.
****Although I've gone through a few pairs since I moved out east. I think the salt is not so good for them.
*****Every pair of shoes I own makes me feel like a slightly different person. I walk differently, I stand differently, I act differently. I think that's why it's so hard for me to find shoes I like - they're not just shoes, they're personalities.
listersgirl: (break's over)

This flight wins for least favourite travel experience ever, beating out even the time I fainted on the plane, and the time I arrived at 5 in the morning when I was supposed to arrive at 10 the night before. Not that there was anything wrong with the flight -- no, it was completely on time, and totally smooth. But clearly red-eye flights are All Wrong for me, because I didn't fall asleep (which was my grand plan), and instead spent the last 3 1/2 hours of the flight shaking and feeling incredibly nauseous, which was made worse when I closed my eyes. Since I haven't had any motion sickness on any of the other flights I've taken this year, I really think it's just because my body was angry at being awake during times when it shouldn't, among other things. Never again!


Not only did I come home to lots of cards (my favourite part of getting back to Toronto), there was a parcel outside my door that made it to me even though it was pretty drastically misaddressed (no apartment number, and the street number was reversed). My postal person loves me! Ooh, AND, there was a menu for a new vegetarian chinese restaurant that just(?) opened not that far from me. YUM. Who wants to join me for fake meat and sweet & sour sauce? My favourite thing on the menu: Deep Fried Heaven.


According to that New Year's Resolutions LJ thingy that's going around, in 2007 I resolve to volunteer to spend time with board games. No objections here! I am, in fact, in the middle of making resolutions, which I didn't do last year, although my resolutions are starting to look suspiciously like a very grand to-do list. I'm just better with things that have an end.


Not really, of course. But I did acquire, through various means, a ridiculous amount of tea over the holidays. As of today I declare a moratorium on bringing new tea into the house, at least until I go through some of the tea that I have, and work on my first resolution, which is to reorganize my tea shelves. If the tea is going to overflow to on top of the microwave and under the shelves, I want it to at least be all one kind of tea.


Clearly the reason why I always unpack (...mostly) as soon as I get home, even if it's already midnight and I have to got to work the next morning, is that if I don't, I never will. Also, I won't be able to brush my teeth. After getting home this morning at 7:30, I basically threw myself into bed, with the intention of sleeping a bit, getting up in time to buy groceries, and then unpacking like crazy. Instead I slept a lot (I love my bed), barely made it out of the house before things started closing, and am, well, clearly not unpacking. In fact, I appear to be looking at DVD sales on Amazon. Damn.
listersgirl: (lost fate)

I don't know why I'm excited, though. It's not like February is the most exciting of months. In fact, around here February is pretty much the least favourite of months, what with the cold and the snow and the lack of holidays. Still, for some reason I'm rather fond of February this year, at least for the moment.

I did really well on my January resolution. Gold star for me! I mean, I actually went to bed earlier, and got more sleep, for the majority of days. I'm still tired all the time, but I think that's more a function of when I have to get up and the fact that my body refuses to accept that 6am is morning. I'll take what I can get, though.

My February resolution is to write more of my silly NaNovel. Because I was doing so not particularly well, and then I just gave up! That's not on. I mean, the giraffes had just shown up. So, yeah.

I tried my humidifier last night (See? I can buy things in less than a year. Sometimes). I don't know if it made any difference, but that was just the first night. It was pretty loud at first, but I think I got used to it -- it's hard to tell, because I wake up so often these days. It could have been the noise, or it could have just been me. I have high hopes, though.

Finally: Hypothetically, if I were to take a trip to, say, London* and environs, what would be the nicest time of year to visit?

And I'm done.

*England, that is, not Ontario.
listersgirl: (mehndi)
Oh, FINE. Maybe I'm a tiny bit jealous that all you had such fun, exciting New Year's Eves, full of drinking, and friends, and games, and staying up too late. Not that it's not my fault for being such a wuss and staying in away from the snow, but my evening of doing dishes and going to bed early just doesn't compare.

Not that going to bed early (-er, than usual) has been all that useful in attempting to get more sleep, which is, incidentally, my January resolution -- I have terrible insomnia these days. Can't get comfortable, itchy all the time, way too hot in my bedroom even with the window wide open and the fan on. Even when I finally fall asleep, hours after I go to bed, I keep waking up. It sucks, you know? But I will triumph! Maybe I'll start taking post-work naps. Or, oooh, lunchtime naps.

In conclusion, I think "In Translation" is my favourite Lost season 1 episode, I had to take my books back to the library before I could read them (so sad!), and the Girls' Bike Club CD is fucking brilliant.

BPAL of the Day:


"And yet a restless,always unsatisfied craving for the nudity of paganism," she interrupted, "but that love, which is the highest joy, which is divine simplicity itself, is not for you moderns, you children of reflection.It works only evil in you. As soon as you wish to be natural, you become common. To you nature seems something hostile; you have made devils out of the smiling gods of Greece, and out of me a demon. You can only exorcise and curse me, or slay yourselves in bacchantic madness before my altar. And if ever one of you has had the courage to kiss my red mouth, he makes a barefoot pilgrimage to Rome in penitential robes and expects flowers to grow from his withered staff,while under my feet roses, violets, and myrtles spring up every hour,but their fragrance does not agree with you. Stay among your northern fogs and Christian incense; let us pagans remain under the debris,beneath the lava; do not disinter us. Pompeii was not built for you,nor our villas, our baths, our temples. You do not require gods. We are chilled in your world."

Along with Loviatar, she has become something of a 21st century Patron Goddess of all Dominatrixes. While Loviatar is the Goddess of Pain, Wanda governs Control. She is the breathtakingly beautiful sable-wrapped marble queen of Sacher-Masoch's fantasies. Her scent is a deep red merlot with a faint hint of leather,sexual musk and body heat over crushed roses, violets and myrtle.

I would never have picked this out -- I mean, roses and violets are usually big warning signs for me -- but I tested it at a smelling party a couple of orders ago, and I loved it. I think it's the wine. So far every scent with wine that I've tried has been wonderful.


Dec. 31st, 2004 09:26 am
listersgirl: (jack sword - teh_indy)
I have only one New Year's Resolution this year, and that is to become a deipnosophist, a person who excels at dinner table conversation.

A worthy goal, don't you think?

(The word came from this fabulous book my parents got for Christmas called Cupboard love: a dictionary of culinary curiosities by Mark Morton, which looks at the etymological background (among other things) of interesting food-, drink- and cooking-related words. I'm thoroughly enjoying it, and trying to read it fast so that I finish it by the time I have to leave.)

ps. Happy birthday [ profile] circe_tigana! I hope you're having a fabulous time off with your girls.
listersgirl: (grr argh - jess79)
November already. Gah. I'm not entirely thrilled with this daylight savings thing - it's still pitch black outside when my alarm goes off, although at least there's a little light while I'm waiting for the streetcar, and now it's going to get dark so bloody early.

I just. I don't do well in the winter. If it's still dark when I get to work, and dark again when I leave, I feel oppressed and have to fight the urge to hibernate. Even leaving the house to do things I like becomes a chore, and getting myself to do anything after work other than go straight home to bed is tremendously difficult. Also, I want hot chocolate ALL THE TIME. It doesn't help that I don't have any windows at work - last year there were times when I literally didn't see daylight for the whole work week.

Whatever. Or, in the immortal words of our house motto, "Whatever, fuck."


So, since it's the beginning of a new month, let's look back at how I did on my October resolution, which was to learn how to flirt. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Yeah, right, as if. That's just never going to happen. Moving on!

Ok, what doofus put these two resolutions right beside each other? Because apparently November's resolution is to develop a better self-image. Lord. Why couldn't November's resolution be to read more? Because that I could get behind, yo.


I have become completely incapable of going to bed at a reasonable hour. I need the sleep, I know I need the sleep, I just can't move once I sit down, and I end up reading or wasting time on the computer until many, many hours past my bedtime, even until past the point where I'm shaking because my body is so tired. It needs to stop - I can't really manage for long on less than 8 hours a night, let alone the 5 or less I'm currently getting. I need a reverse alarm clock, one that'll send me to bed. Of course, I'd probably manage to ignore it the way I do with my normal alarm...
listersgirl: (sexy aly - jess79)
Pardon me while I channel my mother for a moment, but how the hell* did it get to be October already? Where is the time going? I swear it goes faster the older I get. Sigh.

All of this being a lead-in to tell you that I failed miserably at my September resolution of brushing up my German, due to unexpected expenses and, well, laziness. And now it's October, and for October I told myself I'd learn how to flirt.

How YOU doin'?


No, you're right, my mother would not say "the hell". Now bugger off and leave me to my mild expletives.
listersgirl: (Default)
Today I am wearing Envy, which started out with fabulous piercing mint, and has since mellowed to something a bit more generically green, like warm grass. I think I like it.

Also today I officially gave up the pretense that I don't really live here (after 3 years), and I swapped my BC driver's licence for an Ontario licence - or, more accurately, for a piece of paper and a promise. Why is the driver testing station out in the middle of nowhere? Shouldn't it be somewhere convenient for people who, I don't know, don't yet drive?

Last month I swore to cut down on random channel surfing, at which I'd say I succeeded during the week and failed miserably on the weekends. On the plus side, I now have an extensive knowledge of what supposedly educational soft porn sex documentaries are on after midnight.

This month I'm supposed to take up my German again, but I'm going to bump that until next month, when the classes start, so instead this month I have to go out more with friends. Friends, be warned.

And finally, last night I got a postcard from [ profile] pescana, which almost made it here before she even got back. Thanks! That's a hell of a lot of fish from one trip.
listersgirl: (Default)
I have more Fringe reviews (for the two of you that are interested), and an ever-growing list of books, but I also have actual work to do before I go on vacation, so that'll have to wait.

Because, yes, I'm going on a mini-holiday starting Tuesday. All of four days. I'm at work today (after being off yesterday) and coming to work on Monday, much to the disbelief of my co-workers. I only had four days vacation time, ok? Anyway, my parents are coming out from the coast and we're going to the Stratford Festival, and then they're very briefly coming here, to my apartment which I've been diligently cleaning. It should be fun. God knows I haven't been to the theatre in ages. Heh.

But I thought, since I'm going on holiday, I should do the vacation tradition of sending out postcards that arrive home after I do. Or in this case, probably even get sent after I arrive home. But hey, it's tradition! And everyone loves mail.

So who wants a postcard?

[Poll #315694]

Also, since it's July, it's time for a quick resolution update. June's resolution was to take more initiative at work. I don't know, I was so freakishly busy with my regular work that I didn't have time to move on any of the projects that I wanted to get going on. Although today I took initiative and completely changed the intranet site without running it past anyone. Sadly, it's already July.

As for this month, I so solemnly swear to only watch TV if there's something specific that I want to watch. No random surfing! Which basically means very little TV watching and more time for DVDs. Which is good, because I have a list of TV shows on DVD that I want to see.
listersgirl: (movie me)
I tried to follow the crowd and make one of those little icons of me, but it looked nothing like me, no matter what I did. I had much better luck when I made a picture of me in Hoyle card games. Instead, you get Lauren, who is a Hollywood (read: much cuter) version of me, minus the geek glasses.

I've been training a new librarian for the past few days. He's only here for 3 days, and then he heads back to his own library, so I'm having to decide what is most important and what can be ignored. I hate doing that - I wrote the rules, therefore I think they're all important! Anyway, that's why I'm not around much, in case anyone was feeling the lack of me.

Oh, and since it's June (and in honour of the fact that I actually remembered to grab my new metropass this morning), resolution update:

I did not learn to cook two new dishes that would be perfect for potlucks and the like. I barely even cooked at all this month. This past weekend I believe I ate every meal out, including a few extras, so that's a big NO.

For June, my resolution is to take more initiative at work. I think I'm off to a good start - yesterday I sent my trainee home early because he was becoming comatose.

May day

May. 3rd, 2004 09:43 am
listersgirl: (Default)
Happy May, everyone! Now if only it would start to feel like May outside. My hands were freezing this morning, and I have no hopes that I'll be able to find replacement gloves for the ones I lost a couple of weeks ago. Not when the stores are all about flip-flops and sunglasses.

So, new month, new resolution. Last month's resolution was to practice bellydance for at least 15 minutes a day, which so did not happen. I practiced, but only to learn the specific choreography, and when that was over I stopped. No good habits formed there.

For May, I said that I would perfect 2-3 dishes that are useful for potlucks or instant entertaining. It's a good resolution, no? I cook for myself all the time, but it's not exactly either portable or good for entertaining. I'd love to be someone that always has the makings of a quick dish lying around, so that if people are over I can whip something up. So I think I'll look through my cookbooks this weekend and see what looks promising.

Meanwhile, I'm going to sit here at my computer, with my sweater, in my highly air conditioned office, and pretend that there really is a pressing need for me to buy sandals and a bathing suit.
listersgirl: (mandy sum up - jess79)
Since it's April, I should look at how I did with my March resolution. These resolutions are a little bit redundant now that I'm making weekly goals, but I'm still dedicated to them.

So dedicated, in fact, that I didn't keep March at all. Ha! I was supposed to find 2 new active activities that I liked, which didn't even remotely happen. I still didn't get around to trying rock-climbing, and I bailed on signing up for a Pilates course. Whatever, there's plenty of time in the year to try something new. I'm thinking maybe swimming classes in the summer, when I'll really appreciate being in the water.

Oh, hey, look at that, I have a nice surprise for April - I vowed to practice bellydance for at least 15 minutes a day. Which was a weekly goal last week, and which I promised to do anyway after knowing that I'm going to be dancing in public. So either I'll be a triple threat resolution keeper, or I'll fail miserably three times.
listersgirl: (Default)
Hmm, apparently I jumped ahead of myself for February, so February's resolution will now be March's resolution. Which is (was) to find two new activities that I enjoy doing, preferably ones that do not involve sitting at the computer.

March's resolution, which I thought was February's resolution, was to start regular email contact with people that I don't see often. If we extrapolate this to mean, see people more often, then I did ok. I even managed to see some people who don't live in Toronto. The email thing, though, that didn't really happen. I'm blaming it on too much work, keeping me away from my desk.
listersgirl: (Default)
Well, that was a lazy weekend if ever there were one. I did very little of anything - I didn't even watch DVDs, because the DVD player appears to be broken. Again. Mostly I just read, and cleaned up my favourites list on my laptop, and read some more, and attempted to finish cleaning off my desk.

Because, yes, it's now February, so I was trying to be a good girl and actually stick to my January resolution, which was to clean the linen closet, under the desk, and the top of the desk. I got the linen closet and under the desk done, and technically the top of the desk is clean too, what with being pretty much empty and everything that was on the desk spread out on the floor. Hey, I didn't say anything about the floor having to stay clean! Sigh.

Oh, and we went to see The Corporation. It was excellent - powerful and entertaining and thought-provoking all at once. I would definitely recommend that everyone go see it (I believe it's opening in the States in June and the UK in October).

[ profile] vestra and I had some interesting discussions on the subway on the way home, about how the movie made us want to run out and become activists, but also made us want to hide under the covers and never leave the house, because the world is a very depressing place. Or possibly that last was just my reaction. I thought a lot last night about consumerism, and how to become a more conscious consumer - I think it starts with just asking yourself questions before you buy anything. Do I really need this? Why do I want this? One of the people interviewed in the movie was talking about the ecological footprint that his company is leaving, and I want my footprint to be small.
listersgirl: (Default)
I think I'm set - I've got Readolutions, and fitness/health resolutions, and a new set of monthly resolutions for 2004, starting with January's vow: to clean out the last few pockets of randomness in my apartment, namely the linen closet, the top of my desk, and underneath the desk. Finding anything in those piles is completely maddening.

The rest... )

Plus I want to try to knock at least a couple of things off my 100 things list, although hopefully that'll happen through some of the other resolutions. Because I don't know, some of those might not be that easy. Of course, if I'd stuck to only things that I know I could do, I would have resolved to buy more DVDs and eat out more often.
listersgirl: (Default)
It's early for most of you, and late for others, but I wish everyone a wonderful happy New Years, and most especially a brilliant 2004. I feel good about this one, kids.

Since I am home for the holidays, I am doing nothing more exciting than dinner out (Thai food, yum) and watching a few DVDs. No games, unlike last year and the marathon game playing until 4am.

I think I'm going to make a few resolutions - probably monthly, because that worked pretty well this year, but first let's see how I did with Resolutions 2003. )


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